It feels great to feel wonderful being single. When Valentines Day came, I just want to be alone, with my favorite Mandarin trilogy in DVD - the Three Kingdoms. Well, perhaps it's not my favorite but that's what I am following right now. The DVD, along with a cup of homemade fruity tea, I would be perfectly content. I had no expectation from anyone in my life. I did get the lovely texts wishing me a happy Valentines Day. I was happy to be remembered. On the actual day, I just went about life as normal and slept with the kids early - at 9:15 pm.
But the last two days got me thinking primarily because a girlfriend told me she is launching back into the dating scene again. She is truly single with no kids to take care of. She is also older. She is lucky to have all the time in the world, really. But I don't. I am not free until the kids are in bed. And my free days from the kids have evolved into not really free because I miss them so much and didn't mind having them back for the sleep over. Now they are even more resistant to being with the ex for an over night. When they stay over with me on the weekends, I would end up making a full breakfast, which always result in lots of dishes to clean. So I am exhausted. How do I date with this schedule?
I still haven't figure that part out. With such limited time, and the need to really move along in my career, is this something I really can't put a hold on?
